12 December 2009

A longing fulfilled ...


"A longing fulfilled is sweet to the soul." (Proverbs 13:19) I have regularly read a proverb every day since I was in college. And because today is December 12th, I read Proverbs 12 (the entire chapter, short that they are) to kind of get my head screwed on straight for the day that was coming my way today.

Being spiritually aware or open to spiritual things is a good thing, in my humble opinion. When I was a kid, I had no religious thought. None. We never spoke about God, or the bigger picture, even though we had a family Bible on our library shelf, with its dogeared pages, and worn leather cover. My family was simply trying to get by, to survive the "here and now," pay the mortgage and make sure none of the 11 kids disappeared over the weekend to be bothered with questions of "there and then."

When I was 12 or so, my friends and I would often play poker on the weekends, and when the gods of the cards saw fit to bestow the majority of the chips to a certain lucky player (3 stacks of high society), we'd all retire outside to sit on the hoods of the cars in my driveway and stare up at the heavens and wonder if we (our collective life) weren't just a tiny speck in the molecule of a cell in the thumbnail of a giant swimming in some ocean on a planet in some far off galaxy. And, if there were worldviews held amongst us with more Western traditions, those voices remained silent during these pre-midnight jr. high bull sessions.

Since we had no direction from our parents, we sort of became a rather motley crew of agnostics not knowing what to believe. Of course, the more sophisticated amongst us pledged undying fealty to atheism and evolution (our 7th grade science teacher at A.E. Wright middle school, Mr. Kanter, would have been proud). However, I knew or felt or hoped for something more. Something that would comfort, give direction and, yes, that word again, offer hope for the future.

So, I realized today, that my deepest superficial longing in life today is to find "success" in my business life. To have something to show for all of the turmoil on this blue ball, a "wealth creating" moment as we say in business consulting. But, then I was reminded this afternoon driving around in the L.A. rain -- with cars skidding, motorcycles crashing in front of me, and ambulances aplenty -- that many men go their entire lives to finally realize that a spiritual perspective is a longing fulfilled. We struggle with this as men, to have success, to "be someone" and then realize when it's perhaps too late, that our kids just wanted to have a catch, to chat over a coffee, or to just have dad around to bless their own kids and spoil them with candy before dinner.

Life is never a dull moment, and if it ever is, God help the man who "has it all" because he'll soon be dead.

What are you longing for? A relationship? A new car? A child? An answered prayer? I hope you get it soon, Dear Reader!


13 comments:

Snarky Basterd said...

My longing list is too long for your comments box. I'm not only a snarky basterd but also a greedy one.

But better spirituality would be high on that list. I have a lot to pay God back for.

Dumbwit Tellher said...

I'm right with you, the "success" factor is burning a hole in my heart. I love what you said about what a child 'really' wants. We as parents get so wrapped up with daily life that we forget it's basically our time & full-attention that kids desire the most. I do know that it's raining & windy as all get out in CA. We just got a hefty bill to have a tree removed from our rooftop in San Diego. Yes, I do need a prayer answered in fact. Great week ahead to you JGregg ~ deb

FatScribe said...

Happy to add yours to my list, DT ... hopefully our SD weather treats you better for the rest of '09 and 2010!

Deb, I wish you and all readers/visitors to FatScribe "success" in 2010!! I might just have to do a blogroll shoutfest at year's end like you did, girl.

christian soldier said...

Just completed an oil on canvas with an etched likeness of my personal jet and 'castle' on the water - in the color of red of course!!
I'm going to add a yacht w/ personal crew...
I figure tithing 10% of millions will be better than 10% of thousands...
Dream big-!!!

My major prayer is that Patriots step forth- learn their history- and bring this country back to its roots...
Glad you are back...
C-CS

lisa golightly said...

Just found you via Uncle Beefy. You have a great writing style.
My true longing is to find success through what I love doing, art/design
( semi yearning for a laptop too )

Keep it coming !
lisa

Char said...

thanks for dropping by. a lot to think of...there so so many needs but then i remind myself of needs versus wants. then i remember that mostly i need to breathe and move forward. longing for a way to make sense of it all - then maybe the relationship to bring it all together.

Sandy K. said...

Things I am longing for, ah, the tangible "list." I find the older I become the more in tune I am to the not-so-tangible list, as well as the longing to make a difference. My faith leads me to think I am headed in the right direction, and my heart is full. My chidren and grandchildren keep me laughing - even if occasionally that laugh is rueful, or wistful. The winding river of my Thanksgiving photo is still winding...keping life interesting. Whatever is around the bend, I pray I'm ready for it! Have a blessed Christmas.

christian soldier said...

I would love to have your recommendations on any book by Eidsmoe!
Thank you for the heads up bout them...
C-CS

Nickie Goomba said...

"A longing fulfilled is sweet to the soul."

I had to laugh out loud at your graphic because one of my longings (fantasies) has been to bowl for Cornwall in the Counties Championship. Alas, 60-year old knees and 50 extra pounds have determined my Cricketing fate.

My longing is to feel that I have earned all the gifts with which I've been blessed.

Happy New Year, Fats!

Caleb S. Garcia said...

I didn't know we went to the same middle school (though a few years apart). Great blog sir, inspirational and timely. It's never about the gospel of financial prosperity but the gospel of do, do all that you can in this short life, I will try to do the same.

Snarky Basterd said...

Happy New Year, J.G.

Joie said...

Great post!

One Ticked Chick said...

Just catching up JG. Happy New Year to you and may you find what you long for. As for myself, I just want to find peace -- inner harmony, an end to the political strife, and some good old peace on earth.