25 June 2011

this appointment with disappointment


separate lives.  river splits the two, the two versions of ourselves.  you know.

over there all verdant where a canopy of contentment stands over manicured yards and money raining down all timely and whatnot.  a rive gauche for the accomplished who sleep sweetly and love deeply and things are straight and teeth perfect and none need hindsight.  a life we think better that actually exists.

makes me think of

these separate lives. of ours.  well mine.  from the ole here now.  not just about means or money or status, but the disconnect of knowing and faith, from still hoping and just dreaming. my feet banked with acceptance rather than disappointment. still swinging for dimly lit, rippling dreams, still reaching and learning.

makes me realize finally

that over there begins, you know, over here.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

I get it. The aspirational "self" that we want, right? Yes, I see my better self usually across the way or the river, and sometimes ON the River Styx.

Julia Christie said...

Oh Jg...How you prick my subconscious and make me sit up and take stock...Love that about my visits here...always thought-provoking.

Rich indeed!

(YOU can WRITE!)

Smiles

Anonymous said...

Nice to be back! One thing never will change.. your writing is a genius.. because you are.

Barbara said...

That's beautiful, JG!

No matter our age, it's important to reach, learn and take chances. It's the only road to success.

christian soldier said...

Reflection-your words captured its meaning -beautifully --thank you-
C-CS

Toyin O. said...

Great post, thanks for sharing.

christian soldier said...

Have a grand Independence Day-my friend-
Carol-CS

John Gautereaux said...

Anon -- yeah, sort of, i guess. just writing, really. but, thx for your insight!

Julia -- so appreciate your comments.

Lea -- GREAT to have you back posting, even if (like me) episodically at best.

John Gautereaux said...

Barb -- thx! really looking forward to a summer's worth of edible delights from you over at moveable feasts! ;)

Carol -- i like that you pulled out a reflection from that little post. if we all reflected upon our inner voices, we'd have some dreamers becoming some fulfilled accomplishers!

Toyin -- thanks for visiting! i'll come by your blog for a visit ...

Carol -- Happy 4th!!!!

Dumbwit Tellher said...

I had to read twice as once just was not good enough to soak it all in, swim in it, and bask in your meaning. I often think of my other person, maybe too much these days. So masterfully written Jg. Hope your travels to Austin go well? Only wish it had been Houston to buy you that cup of coffee.

xDeb

My Dog-Eared Pages said...

I had to read twice, too! I think this is just about the most wonderful, truthful thing I've read in a long time. I loved it. Perfect photograph for "over here." Brilliant. ; )